death of a teacher

something just reminded me of a news i recieved recently.
my physics teacher back in jc passed away last month.

mr tai, thanks for passing on your knowledge, passion, and attitude.

pain therapy

instead of calling it tie da, i think i should call it pain therapy.
becuz after extreme pain from being 'massaged' on the vital points and nerves, tendons, etc... your previous pain suddenly just disappear. it's a miracle, after a torture.

it's like a broken heart healing process. the worst you feel, the better you get, after that. provided you actually get over the worsening part, i.e. maximum point, decreasing dy/dx, where y is pain level and x is time.

alwayz interesting to link how the body works with how the mind works.
physiology and psychology.
it's linked. never separated. a body and a mind is you.

been watching Lie to Me, interesting show.
using techniques of facial expression detection, body language, vocal changes, etc to detect deception. pretty cool show. i wonder why the sch doesn't have a module on this. would probably been a hit among the students. one reason i can think of is, no one in the country is found yet, to have been trained and excel in facial reading. microexpressions lasting only 1/25 second, that's too fast to detect if you're not paying particular attention to the exact position of the facial muscles responsible.

genuine smile - AU 6 + AU 12.

can't run

after soccer last night, i felt something weird in my left knee.
a bit of twisting last night also kinda gave me an acute pain.
this late morning when i woke up after mahjong, i kinda figured something was wrong.
hmm.. seemed like i overworked my knee ligament or something, felt like a blood clot underneath the skin where i can't feel it with my hands. bending hurts.
if this continues, gotta visit doc.
badminton muscle aches + fico doesn't really work out well when you're physically not adapted yet to vigorous exercise.

i rmbed my hands and legs were shaking in the middle of my badminton game. it was that bad. hope my knee recovers soon. i don't like to feel sick in any kind.

having problem figuring what i want to do for my psych courses.
a bit lazy to care at the moment also.
everything has been rather fixated till this moment.
but next sem is gonna be a matter of choice.
so while i'm still figuring what i'm gonna do with my life,
i guess i'll just laze my time away and enjoy it first.
life
so much things i wanna do
so much things i wish i have done
so much things i hope to accomplish
so much ideals that i know is impossible to see while i'm alive but it will be interesting to see what would really happen.

a world without money. i still think of this once in a while.

badminton

one day off from exam and i'm physically strained already.
went back to office becuz boss needed someone there for the meeting.
although i found it quite simple and can be done by the other 2 guys in the office.
well, i did other tasks as well.
got a 16yr old part-time girl was not absent today.
she kinda pon from the job from what boss said.
looked thru some of her stuffz in the workspace.
typical 16 yr old girl.
immature.

perhaps i'm getting too old for all the random tiny excitements that teenagers have. but then again, i dont think i got excited from tiny stimulants when i was a teen.

after work was badminton!
was a last min inclusion, lucky i checked the forums.
1st game, and i was so tired already. i didn't fail ippt for no reason. ha.
strokes were way out of court, especially backhand return. i scored hat-trick for that. ridiculous play.but still, it was fun. though the uncles still own me.

it was interesting to experience that long lost sense of speed in me.
initially when i got smashed on, the shuttle was just too fast for me to react.
then it got better, and better.

some things never do change.
when i fell in love back when i was 10, i knew this would go on for the whole of my life. but too bad my life doesn't depend on it, but it make my life my fulfilling.

it's 1 mth since being 22

exactly 1 mth has passed since birthday.
and the exams over.
today's paper was pretty shitty.
20 blanks, 4 structured essays questions.
i seriously think i got less than half of the blanks correct, and maybe just 3/5 of the essays right at best. can't choose the questions, all compulsory.

have been staying up till 2, sleeping hours and waking at 5-6am to study.
as usual, my body starts to feel a bit shaky after an acute period of this routine.
now it feels funny that i'm not studying.

should start planning stuffz to do this sem break.
personal project.
and 'personal project' came out in one of the blanks qns, which i don't know the ans to.

not good

i keep getting hungry while studying.
and i'm kinda lazy to cook maggie mee.
spend 15min to cook and within 1min eat finish. sianz.
4 more days, 2 more papers, 5 more hours of examination.

wed, come faster leh.
mon, don't come so fast.

i'm still having the "if time can go back to the start of sem... " feeling.

i should start doing some exercise soon.
the shorts that don't used to fit, seemed to fit now.
besides, since my ippt failed, gotta work on it for rt.
maybe swimming.
does playing darts exercise body? i wonder.

still hungry.

addiction

i have gotta put my addiction off till the end of the 2 papers.
i just spent the whole morn watching friendz. haha...
it's hard to resist the temptation to watch a group of 6 close friends.
back to work. 2 more to go.

i've got a few things planned this coming sem break.
one of which is just staying at home and laughing my time away.